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Going to Las Vegas Soon!!! Woohoo! 158 Views 11/06/10

I'm going to Vagas for a few days the week of Thanksgiving. does anyone have suggestions on "must sees"? I'm not looking to spend a bunch of money...just to have a good time.  :)

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Hope Remains - Repost...Now you can see it. Sorry! 147 Views 05/13/10




Hope Remains

Hope remains in the dead of night
When all is dark and silent
Life lays still and dormant
A flower not yet in bloom

Darkness creeps across the land
Slithering in all directions
Smothering all living things
Possessing all in its path

The air thickens and shimmers
As dark gives way to light
Radiating through the darkness
Bursting from the depths of night

Moments pass as night becomes day
Darkness temporarily defeated
Basking in God’s great glory
Welcoming the dawn of a new day

©2010 Melissa Parker. All rights reserved.








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Funnies 107 Views 11/24/09

Wife: ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ Honey..... What are You Looking for ?
Husband : ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿Nothing.
Wife : ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿Nothing...?? You've been reading our marriage certificate for an hour ??
Husband : ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿I was just looking for the expiration date.

¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿**********¿¿¿

Wife : ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿Do you want dinner?
Husband : ¿ ¿ ¿Sure, what are my choices?
Wife : ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿Yes and no. ¿

¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ********** ¿

Wife: ¿ ¿ ¿ You always carry my photo in your briefcase to the office. ¿Why?
Husband: When there is a problem, no matter how impossible, I look at your picture and the ¿problem disappears.
Wife: ¿ ¿ ¿ You see how miraculous and powerful I am for you?
Husband: Yes, I see your picture and say to myself, 'What other problem can there be greater than this one?'

¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿********** ¿

A wife asked her husband: 'What do you like most in me my pretty face or my sexy body?' ¿He looked at her from head to toe and replied: 'I like your sense of humor.'

¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ ¿ **********

The Silent Fart

An elderly couple was attending church services. About halfway through, she leaned over and whispered To her husband, 'I just let out a long silent fart. What Do you think I should do?'
He replied, 'Put a new battery in your hearing aid.'

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The More I Seek You 209 Views 07/25/09

I'm really thankful I went to church tonight. When I got there I was feeling tired and my heart just wasn't into it....at first.

I really made a connection with God tonight...I don't know how to put it into words. But what I need know is, how can I have this kind of connection all of the time and not just at church?

I listen to Z88.3 and I love contemporary christian music...I pray and I talk to God on my own terms/in my own time, maybe this is the problem.

I've been getting a lot of messages lately and I thank God I've had the sense to listen...I hear you Lord!

Please take a minute to listen to the song... I've also posted the lyrics which are quite powerful.

The more I seek you
The more I find you
The more I find you
The more I love you

I want to sit at your feet
Drink from the cup in your hand
Lay back against you and breath
This love is so deep
It's more than I can stand
I melt in your peace
It's overwhelming


You can fnd the song on YouTube. The More I Seek You by Kari Jobe

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Words Wisdom for Women 143 Views 06/17/09

Words for Women to Live By


1. Aspire to be Barbie - the has everything.

2. If the shoe fits - buy them in every color.

3. Take life with a pinch of salt... A wedge of lime, and a shot of tequila.

4. In need of a support group? - Cocktail hour with the girls!

5. Go on the 30 day diet. (I'm on it and so far I've lost 15 days).

6. When life gets you down - just put on your big girl panties and deal with it.

7. Let your greatest fear be that there is no PMS and this is just your personality.

8. I know I'm in my own little world, but it's ok. They know me here.

9. Lead me not into temptation, I can find it myself.

10. Don't get your knickers in a knot; it solves nothing and makes you walk funny.

11. When life gives you lemons in 2009 - turn it into lemonade then mix it with vodka.

12. Remember where ever there is a good looking; sweet, single or married man there is some woman tired of his bullshit!

13. Keep your chin up, only the first 40 years of parenthood are the hardest.

14. If it has Tires it's gonna give you trouble.

15. By the time a women realizes her mother was right, she has a daughter who thinks she's wrong.

'Good friends are like stars.........You don't always see them, but you know they are always there' 'Remember yesterday, dream about tomorrow, but live for today'. Now smile and send to any girl wasting time at work, suffering from a hangover, or just suffering from life , that might need a reason to smile!

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Love is Patient 133 Views 04/04/09
I heard this today and now I can't get it out of my head or heart...so I thought I would share in hopes it touches one of you. :) Love is patient Love is kind It does not envy It does not boast It is not proud It is not rude It is not self-seeking, It is not easily angered It keeps no record of wrongs Love does not delight in evil But rejoices with the truth Love always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things. Love never ends. L o v e N e v e r F a i l s.
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Are You a Screamer or Quiet as a Church Mouse? 584 Views 08/04/08
I've been popping in from time to time and I see a lot of new people as well as old friends and I thought I'd throw out an ice breaker question....plus I'm genuinely curious. When in the "throws of passion," are you a screamer or quiet as a church mouse?
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Can't Sleep 186 Views 05/10/08
Hi Everyone! :) I thought I'd poke my head in and see how everyone is. I still haven't renewed my membership but I'm thinking about it. So what's new in your life? I've got a new job that I love but I feel like I'm working myself to death. I have to pay my dues for a while but I got that promotion that I was looking for so I won't complain too much. :) I haven't wrtten anything lately and my book is stalled. I just haven't felt inspired lately. So, here I am again...hoping for some inspiration. It'll come sooner or later, of that I'm sure. Well, it's late and maybe I'll try to go to sleep again. I'd love to call my buddy Neal right now but I think that might not go over too well (because of the time...it's almost midnight). LOL So Neal, just know I'm thinking of you though the timing never seems to be right these days. :) ((Big Hug)) for Everyone! Melissa
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I Surrender 152 Views 02/11/08
Ok, my membership expired 01/22/08 and I'm not in the position to renew it yet. Sorry I've been distant but a lot of things have happened lately. Some good and some very bad. The good news is that I've got a new job and start Monday at Northrop Grumman. I can't talk about the bad yet but I'm really trying to work through it. As usual, I wrote a poem. lol I don't expect you to like it but it definitely sheds some light on how I'm feeling. That which doesn't kill me, makes me stronger...I hope. I Surrender Chaos and turmoil define life Love exists in finite measures Happiness is just an illusion Hate threatens to rule all life Violence lurks in every corner Praying on the innocent Destroying everything in its wake But life continues in its frailty Threatening to collapse at any moment We crawl along the path alone Praying for peace and understanding Searching for resolution that may never come Surrendering everything we were Surrendering everything we are Surrendering everything we may become This is the price we all must pay I surrender... (c) 2008. Melissa Parker. All rights reserved.
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Writer's Block 100 Views 01/21/08
I've been experiencing writer's block with all of things going on in my life. But a good friend helped me to get back into the swing of things. I'm not sure this can be considered a poem (it's more me venting) but it's the first step in the right direction. What do you think? Thank you Nat! :) The Layoff Once again life spirals out of control Christmas vacation was great But the first day back was hell The company no longer wants me Or needs me so they say Do I yell and scream and say it's unfair? Or do I just hang my head and stalk out? I collected my things and accepted my fate Refusing to bow in shame I walked to my car in a daze And got in with a shake of my head How could I have been so wrong? (c) 2008. Melissa Parker. All rights reserved.
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So much for 2008 212 Views 01/08/08
Well, I had high hopes for 2008 but so far it's off to a really rocky start. I went back to work yesterday (first day back from vacation) and guess what? They laid me off. I know it was coming, honestly I'm surprised. I'm tired of the bureaucratic BS. I outlived my usefulness and I was threat because of things that I knew (things they weren't comfortable with). Anyway, I haven't freaked out yet. Maybe this is a blessing in disguise. I'm feeling that I have several doors that may be opening...the possibilities are almost palpable. So, I'm keeping my fingers crossed and praying. Maybe this is the big break I've been waiting for... But we'll see. Ok, I'm done venting. I'm really not too upset about it (maybe I'm just in denial) but I've got a good feeling despite the bad. :) Have a great day everyone! Melissa
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Drum Role Please.... 161 Views 01/19/08
I sent some of my work (writing samples) to a publisher and they hooked me up with an agent that wants to sign me and says I have excellent potential. I'm on my way to getting published (I've got my foot in the door). Woooohooooo!!!! :) LMAO
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Merry Christmas 71 Views 12/25/07
I hope everyone had a Merry Christmas! Whether you're alone or with family and friends, remember that you have family here as well in one form or another. Finish 2007 with a bang and start 2008 fresh. (((hugs)))
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I've aged another 10 years 160 Views 12/14/07
Ok, I think I've aged another 10 years...I can feel the gray hair growing in quickly. lol Not only was I sick Wednesday and had to stay home from work (though I felt like crap I was really glad not to be a work with all the crap going on there)....but then I got a call about 4pm saying that my Mom had passed out at work and they admitted her to the hospital. The good thing is that she's out now but they did find a heart problem so now we're waiting to find out how bad it is. (I'm praying it's nothing major) So my point for this blog is to say that, though I'm not a religeous person...I am a Christian and I've been doing a lot of praying lately. I've definitely got more than I can handle. I've gone back to the same prayer that I've said a few times in my life when things were unbearable and I felt like I would crumble to pieces.... "God, I can't handle all of this. It's too much to bear. I'm giving you my troubles and I trust you to help me through them. I can't and I don't want to do it it alone. Please help me." And you know what? No miracle happens...but somehow it becomes bearable. And that's how I've survived through some horrible tragedies. The point is not to be sad but to know that you're not alone. That which doesn't kill you, only makes you stronger. Ok, so I didn't really mean to get so personal but I felt I needed to share. When all else fails, I resort to music. Here's my favorite song by Jars of Clay. The words in print don't make quite the impact the song itself does but I thought I'd share anyway. Worlds Apart I am the only one to blame for this Somehow it all adds up the same Soaring on the wings of selfish pride I flew too high and like Icarus I collide With a world I try so hard to leave behind To rid myself of all but love to give and die To turn away and not become Another nail to pierce the skin of one who loves more deeply than the oceans, more abundant than the tear Of a world embracing every heartache Can I be the one to sacrifice Or grip the spear and watch the blood and water flow To love you - take my world apart To need you - I am on my knees To love you - take my world apart To need you - broken on my knees All said and done I stand alone Amongst remains of a life I should not own It takes all I am to believe In the mercy that covers me Did you really have to die for me? All I am for all you are Because what I need and what I believe are worlds apart I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has cost and wipe away the crimson stains and dullen nails that still remains. More and more I need you now, I owe you more each passing hour the battle between grace and pride I gave up not so long ago So steal my heart and take the pain and wash the feet and cleanse my pride take the selfish, take the weak, and all the things I cannot hide take the beauty, take my tears the sin-soaked heart and make it yours take my world all apart take it now, take it now and serve the ones that I despise speak the words I can't deny watch the world I used to love fall to dust and thrown away I look beyond the empty cross forgetting what my life has cost so wipe away the crimson stains and dullen nails that still remains so steal my heart and take the pain take the selfish, take the weak and all the things I cannot hide take the beauty, take my tears take my world apart, take my world apart I pray, I pray, I pray take my world apart Written by Jars of Clay Copyright ? 1995 BridgeBuilding Music (BMI)/ Pogostick Music (BMI). All rights reserved.
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I can't sleep 146 Views 12/06/07
Ok, it's almost midnight, I have to be at work at 7am, and I can't sleep no matter how hard I try. A lot has happened this week so it's probably because I can't make my mind relax. My supervisor, Rick, who I adore was admitted to the Hospital Tuesday. He has multiple blood clots and they think he has pancreatic cancer. If he does have it then chancew are it's too late to try and cure him because this is a very bad type of cancer (by the time it he actually shows symptoms...it's too late. I really hope this is wrong. I still need to put up my Christmas lights, the company christmas party is Sat. and I have another party to take my daughter to on Sunday. Needless to say it will be a very busy weekend. I'm going stag to the company party, again. I'm ok with it but I am disappointed. Why is it hard to find a date? I wasn't even really looking for a "romantic" date...I would've been happy with a friend to share it with. I've got this gorgeous dress and nobody to wear it for (I feel like cinderella with no prince waiting for me at the ball). I mean, it's good that I'm happy with it but there must be something more. I almost feel like having a date for the annual christmas party is like a club...which I've been denied admission. You know what I mean? I'm just disappointed....I wish some things would change in my life. Honestly, I'm tired of feeling like "the odd man out" at this thing. I do usually have a good time but it could be better. Am I being selfish for wanting it to be better? It's just been a hard year for me. Hopefully 2008 will be better. Don't pay me any mind, I'm just wallowing for a bit and thanks for letting me vent, as usual. Well, I'm off to attempt sleep again.
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The Fairies 101 Views 11/27/07
I was inspired to write this poem by a song I found on YouTube by Celtic Woman called The Voice. It's an enchanting song so this poem is a bit whimsical and metaphorical. Here it goes, I hope you like it. In the moments before sleep claims me I think about my heart's desire Love flows around and through me I float away into the fire Darkness gives way to blinding light Music pulses with a life of its own I seek my bearings with all of my might This place that fairies call home I begin to dance as light as a feather Swirling amongst the fairies Twirling with quiet grace Dancing without a care in world I feel his presence strong and true Dancing with masculine grace I feel his strength and confidence Never seeing his face We dance endlessly Sensing the familiar but afraid to love His arms close around me Quickly I feel I?m home The dance continues, breaking the spell I fight to hold on to what could be Reaching out in desperate plea But farther and farther he drifts away The music grows silent as darkness returns I awake in my bed alone once again One tear shed for what might've been But hope remains for what might still be (c) 2007. Melissa Parker. All rights reserved.
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Mom, Hurry! Come see the kittens 87 Views 11/27/07
So there I was . . . just relaxing in front of the T.V. when the kids yelled, "Hey Mom, come see the kittens."
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Back From Vacation 85 Views 11/25/07
Hi everyone! I'm back from vacation and boy was it way too short. I had a great time. I went to DC to see my uncle Max (who I adore) and we went to the Smithsonian to see the Museum of Natural History. That was great but everything there is reflective so my pictures came out crappy. :( Then we drove into the mountains to see more family. I was disappointed because it didn't look like it would be cold enough to snow. But boy were we wrong. We drove up to Mountain Lake and it was snowing up there. It was magical...and freezing. It was 24 with the windchill (and I thought that was cold). It was 15 degrees when I woke up Saturday morning. Brrrrrr!!! hehe I couldn't have been happier. My mom insisted we drive home Sat. so we got in about 9:45pm last night. We weren't supposed to come back until Monday. My mom said she'd done what she needed to do and she was ready to go home...so we did. I'm really trying not to be bitter about her cutting the trip short but I really am upset about it. She'd done what she needed to do but what about me? I still have unfinished business. I don't know how else to explain it. I had a great time and I wouldn't trade it for the world....but I feel like something's missing. I wish I could just stay there forever because it feels like home...and now that I'm back I feel kind of empty. The trip was kind of bittersweet. I don't understand why I feel this way...I just do. I guess I'm hurting to some extent and I don't know how to fix it because I don't know why. Sometimes I wish I weren't so damn emotional and/or sensitive. Figuring myself out is like doing a jigsaw puzzle sometimes. lol I didn't mean for this post to turn out sad in the end but this is the only place I can truly say how I feel in my heart. Anyway, I had a great time and I hope everyone else enjoyed the holiday....next comes Christmas (I haven't even started shopping yet) Melissa
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What Not to Say During S*x 285 Views 10/26/07
Ok, it's time to lighten things up a bit......and where is everyone? Please chime in :) Oh, and please ignore the fat comment...that doesn't apply here. The rest is great! Just click on the picture and zoom...
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Count Your Blessings 79 Views 11/16/07
Hi everyone, I've been distant for while but I've just been so busy with work. Also, I've been experiencing writer's block as of late. But today I feel inspired (despite that I have walking pneumonia and am home sick from work). I don't know if I can call this a poem, but it's definitely a message I feel compelled to share. I hope you like it. I feel the magic in the air A whirl of possibilities Dancing and Twirling in every direction Waiting to find The One The One who will be blessed Blessed with Grace, Honor, Love, and Happiness But the blessing comes with rules to live by Grace the world with your inner beauty and never hide it. Honor your loved ones by staying true to your heart. Love unconditionally with an open and eager heart. Be happy and enjoy life to the fullest. Who will be the chosen one? Will it be you or will you make your own magic? (c) 2007. Melissa Parker. All rights reserved.
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