Today is day 1. My profile has been created and approved. With a bottle of wine and good music playing, I check my account. No winks, no emails, no one has even looked at my profile. I’m a little surprised by how disappointed I am. So I review my profile and I realize how little it actually says about me. Is it me, or is it incredibly difficult to paint a picture of who I am in a few “attention grabbing” phrases? I spent all day thinking about how I could beef it up and came up blank. I’m me…no catchphrases, no games, just me. Maybe if I started with why I’m joined the site…
I have just finished reading a series of very spicy books. There was attraction, romance, conversation, controversy, break-ups and makeups. I started to wonder if I would ever experience the emotional roller coaster of meeting someone new and a thought hit me. I may never experience the intense agony of a break up or the euphoric joy of a makeup if I don’t put myself out there to try. I know that ideally, no one wants to go through the pain of a breakup, but isn’t the ups and downs of a relationship better than the flat line of being alone? So I joined.
But it still doesn’t help my pitiful profile. What words would I use to describe myself?...Well that depends on the day of the week. Today, I felt powerful and sensual; yesterday, I felt powerful, but alone; tomorrow, is anybody’s guess, maybe shy and flirty. I asked my friends for good descriptions. One said “Brutally honest, but without malice.” I’m still trying to determine if that is a good thing. One said “inquisitive and astute” I like that although I’m not sure how relevant it is. I even heard, “Trustworthy and Dependable”…doesn’t that make me sound like a vacuum cleaner? Anyone looking for a Hoover?
Maybe day 2 will be better.